Thursday, December 16, 2004

Winter Breeze

School is over, but I still seem to be suffering shock from the last days of exam. The weather has been getting progressively colder to the point that even I have found it neccesary to warm up every now and then in front of the heater. The colder it gets the lonlier it gets because I am reminded that I have no one to keep me warm. My body feels the december frost as I step lightly into the bathroom to warm up with a steamy shower. My heart gets no such comfort, and I wonder now what I did so wrong. Usually the winter is a time that I rejoice because I hate hot weather with a passion, but for the last week I have been bordering on depression. Winter is here! School is done! Why do I feel like the weight of the world is bearing down on me even more so? It wasn't that long ago that I came to the simple realization that I don't need someone else to make me happy. That I don't need to be in a relationship to be whole. And, the reason that I have been feeling the way that I have lately is because for some reason I feel like I need to be in a relationship. I've been pretty obvious about it... everyone that I talk to on a regular basis has gotten the clue. Now everyone who stumbles across my thread will know the desperation I feel at the moment.

Well, skrew that!!!

I'm going to break this emotional slump if it's the last thing I do.

(This blog dedicated to the Bi-curious Nag from Scooby Doo :-P)