Silence

We don't talk any more and
you won't see me at the door.
I've gone away and I broke up with you
but that's what you asked me to do.

You won't leave my heart, when
I ask, you just turn around and spin.
A beautiful dancer in my soul
dancing to music played when I was whole.

I can't stop looking at your picture
and wondering if you deleted mine for sure.
All your old letters tell me that you love me,
I forget that there are no new letters to see.

You look so sad and tell me you miss
me before you told me no more of this.
Not that you look any happier now that
we are so quiet in our abandonment.

We never really had a chance this time
around but that won't stop us if I rhyme.
I love you and you love me but sometimes
that's not enough to ring the chimes.

My love will be enough to keep me going
and to wait until I won't hide my showing.
The silence is so hard to take with out just
one word from your lips to make me trust.

Our meetings have always come too early
or too late because of merely fate. Merely!
Fate has had it's last laugh at my expense
and I will rein it from this point hence.

You don't write and you don't call
even when I beg my phone and hit the wall.
Your voice would make all my pain go away
or instead of go, you had asked me to stay.

I dance now to a new song that I listen to
when I think of all the things that are you.
They want to change you but you promised
you would stay the same person, unaltered.

You told me that we would be together
but you also said that for now it's never.
I'll keep my promise and I'll go away
but in my heart you will always stay.

I'll love you in a month, a year, three
years and I'll be waiting, you'll see!
I keep my promises and I'll be waiting
for you on our bench in the shading.

Not another personal blog!

Damn, I wanted to make this a place for short stories and poetry and not fill it with my day to day life but then I just get caught up in living and don't make time to write the stories and poetry to go here. Not that it's all my fault. I met a girl and fell in love but things got complicated. I wrecked my car and broke my hand so I couldn't type that well for a while and I'm still not as good at it as I should be. Needless to say I'm not talking to the girl I fell for anymore but not because we stopped liking eachother or even because she stopped liking me. She ended up breaking things off with me because she had to make things work with the father of her baby. She had no place to live besides with him and he wanted it all or nothing. So, I was hurt but I saw it ending from a long way off so I got most of the mourning out of the way. I had pretty much decided that I was going to be alone for a while.

But, ta-da I actually met a girl who is just amazing. Ta-da? Yeah, I'm going to have to work on that. Anywho, she's pretty, smart, we're into the same kind of things and I really like her. She's a little out of the way to go see but I think she's worth it and well here goes nothing. I got my heart broken less than a month ago and the super glue is barely set... I have to think that this is probably a bad idea but I can't help but feel that things could work out with this girl. She would make a great girl friend but here I am rushing things like people always say I do. It's not true, I'm a very patient person but my brain get's ahead of it's self and I start thinking years into the future when I should only be thinking days. I swear I'll write a story after my Physics exam on wednesday.