Veil of Broken Promises

 I go down into the darkness
A room that I know so well
Yet my mind tells me I've never been here
Everything is where I expect it to be
Nothing is where it should be

Reality shudders at my touch
The black door appears before me
Larger than it has any right to be
The black door fills the world
Edges rippling like flames that do not burn

Yet these the door consumes all
There is nothing left of the reality I know
Just me and the black door that fills the world
The black door that consumes the world
Empty and full, reality shutters under my footstep

There is a knock
Knock
Knock
Knock
The door groans in anticipation

I fulfill the function of the door
Open there is no one there
Just me and a reality consuming door
Stepping over that threshold I step into a room
A room I know but have never seen before

Wheelchair

I am tired of being lied to.  Ever since I've found myself in a wheelchair women have scorned me.  Why do people have to make excuses and try to pretend that they aren't awful people?  I haven't changed since my legs stopped working but I have lost all appeal.  Do you think your lies are for my benefit?  Fuck you. 

Admit that you judge me for not being able to walk.  Admit that God cursing me makes you feel uncomfortable so you look away.  Admit that your lies are for your own comfort and do not help me in the slightest.  Finally, admit that you preach acceptance but damn me for being born weak. 

Even my own family tells me to "date my own kind".  They claim I act like I'm too good to date a handicapped girl.  Well, there aren't any handicapped girls around to date but I really appreciate the close mindedness.  I will rise above your scorn.  My wheelchair will knock loose the foundation of your hypocrisy and shatter your unearned feelings of supremacy.  I'd rather die than let one more person judge me unworthy because of God's carelessness.  I will bring down the gates of Heaven themselves and rise above your judgment.  I will be recognized even if I have to die to have my words heard.